Today is his birthday and I can’t even wish happy birthday to him. I miss you a lot at this time of the year, you know. Sometimes I think I’m not going to handle all this madness, that I’m going to get insane at some point. I just wish things could’ve gone differently, in another kind of road. I miss you so much that some days all I can do is feel like shit remembering what it felt like when you were still here. No one can ever understand what you meant to me and how this whole thing can hurt. They will never know anything about us, they will never see how much pain I carry everyday from this. I miss you, you used to be my best friend, the one I could count on when my world felt like crashing down. Now it’s all crashed when I think of you.
All I really wanted to say is that I miss you more than anyone could ever imagine and there isn’t a day that I don’t think about you. You can come back whenever you want to, I will always wait for my best friend. I hope you’re doing just fine wherever you are.
Happy birthday, Charlie Brown. I love you so much.
